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Jun 8, 2005
:: Ampotah, gusto ko nang pumasok! ::
Playing in my mind :: First Day Funk-Parokya ni Edgar & Eternal Flame-MYMP
Huhu ilang tulog nalang pasukan na naman! And the best part of it all is the fact that I'll be stepping on new grounds, college na ko mahn, & I'm sure proud, not to mention excited & psyched up about the whole thing... Nitong monday lang rin of this week I went to Caloocan to fit my uniforms for UST, ayun, since med-tech yung course ko all-white yung uniform ko na medyo CONSERVATIVE yung cut, that bummed me a bit, hehe, pero ok lang since natuwa talaga akong makita yung sarili ko na nakaputi, para narin akong doctor, kahet sa imagination lang talaga...but hey, I'm sure there's nothing wrong with that diba...hahay, ang haba pa ng tatahakin ko para maging doctor, pero oks lang...kakayanin! :-)
Yesterday I finally got my braces off, wow, it felt really great, para akong pinalayang preso, no more brackets, wires, & supposedly monthly visits, I'm free, este brace-free! Yehey, I feel like a woman [?].
Ngayong hapon palang ako makakabili ng shoes for school, which happpens to be the only thing in my back-to-school list na hindi ko pa nabibili. Actually I have no idea kung anong style ng shoes na bibilhin ko, sabi kasi ng kapatid ko, mas maganda daw na Loafers yung bilhin ko, yung tipong super closed na pang-bergin/conservative yung dating. ON the other hand, sabi naman ng mommy ko ideal parin daw yung mary-jane style, yung tipo naman na mejo open na may strap running across the front part of your feet, a.k.a pambata/wholesome/nice-looking. Ewan ko, maybe I'll get a pair of each style, or better yet, MAGPA-PAA nalang ako, that'll be so cool...ahahaa
Excited na talaga ako...pano ba naman kasi, walang magawa dito sa bahay, & I'm getting sick of the faces that I'm seeing everyday for the past 2 months now...mean? I know, I don't give a rat's ass. haha Lagi kong iniiisip, pano kaya ako maglalakad sa campus [may kendeng ba sa hips?], saan ako kakain, sino kaya magiging friend ko sa first day palang, mababait kaya mga teachers ko, may gwapo kaya akong classmate,saan kaya ako sa seating arrangement, maganda kaya yung classrooms ko, basta, things like that. hehe Basta Lagi kong pinagdadasal na sana ok naman yung experience ko not only sa first day, but for the years to come...haaay.
Ewan ko ba,inevitable parin yung mapaisip ako every time I remember OB Montessori, hmm...ang bilis lang pala ng 13 years...tapos in a matter of days sa UST na ko magaaral...ibang klase talaga ang buhay ng tao...hahaha...well, I can't promise 100%, pero I'll try to visit my old school every once in a while, it would be too insensitive & down-right mean naman kung hindi.
I miss my best friends Florence & Chariza...I admit, I haven't been 100% cooperative tuwing nagyayaya sila ng lakad, kaya eto, I can't help but feel sad & stuff since ilang araw nalang pasukan na, we'll all be busy, & the chances of getting together will be a million to one. Haaay...Miss ko na talaga kayo, and sorry for not siputing pag may lakad. I love you guys.
Tomorrow I'll be going to UST to pick up my P.E. uniform, hoy! F.Y.I. Swimming ang aking PE course for the first semester! hahaha goodluck Christina! Other than that I'll also be going there to persuade my tita Mel to give me the syllabus & book list in advance, ibabalik ko narin yung isang form na dapat nung may ko pa binalik...ahahaha...sana makasama yung mga kapatid ko para hindi ako friendless. ^_^
Posted at 10:15 pm by christinaG
Jun 6, 2005
:: Masakit mang isipin kailangan tanggapin ::
Playing in my mind :: Pare ko-Eraserheads
First, an explanation...hmmm, bakit kaya "drowning in a sea of words"? First of all I figured my last blogs were a bit whimsical & flamboyant, that's why I now opted for a darker, more serious template...drowning in a sea of words kasi walang pictures 'tong blog ko [for now], puro nalang muna stories, narrations, confessions, & the like. Kaya kung wala kang magawa, o kaya nama'y gusto mo lang manghimasok sa buhay ng iba, then you're in the right blog.Basa lang ng basa.hehe
It's been a long time since I felt the way I did last night, pretty much everything came tubling down on me when I started arguing with this guy I've been talking for a month or so. Ewan ko ba, parang nagpagago nanaman ako, pero siguro kasalanan ko rin naman kahit papano, ganito kasi yun, I agreed to help this guy forget his ex & their rather dramatic & tumultuous break-up. Pretty much after agreeing I found myself constantly talking to him & texting him, saying SOME of the things that couples would normally say to eachother. Kulang lang samin commitment. I'm pretty sure everything else was there na, ewan ko ba, parang shock-absorbers lang kami ng isa't-isa, & I was ok with it all, until last night.
Like everything else existing in this universe, what I thought we had that was special turned sour, nabawasan na yung sweetness & everything, para sakin hindi naman big deal yun eh, what I'm looking for lang talaga is security,lagi kong iniiisip kung dapat ko pa bang ituloy yung ginagawa ko, kung may sense pa ba yung paguusap namin, you know, shit like that. Well...I never told him what really bothered me inside, kaya ngayon hindi niya siguro ako maintindihan...Sorry nalang...naisip ko kasi na hindi mo naman ako kailangan, more or less matatapos din ang lahat, at ako ang uuwing talunan...kaya I hope you understand why I told you na ayoko na sayo.It's better this way I guess, giving everything up when we still have a chance, but hey, I guess this is no big deal, lalo na sayo...I know you'll be fine without me, I know you think this is nothing, well maybe it is...but then again, thanks for everything...muntik na kitang mahalin.
Posted at 11:04 pm by christinaG
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